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| 01 Jan 2010.
First blog entry of the brand new year!
As always, it's always been a practice to think back about 2009.
Give thanks, forgive and forget, start afresh.
I'm thankful for an overall fairly good 2009.
Made a career switch and became much happier,
Had a fantastic road trip to the states with my BFFs that widened my horizons,
Had my best girls with me especially for festive seasons to keep me away from random thoughts,
Had news of my dear Yellowace getting engaged that i felt really happy for,
Had my family for support to make me stay strong,
Had partied way much more in innovative themes - ZoukOut bikini Party, Black Party, Viper Party...
Life had been fulfilling as I learnt so much more for the past 12 months.
You can't find happiness unless you create it.
Hoping and wishing for it will never work.
Despite the few tiny glitches that happened,
i still do love 2009.
Come 2010, suddenly it feels redundant to make so many resolutions and to-dos since we can
never stick by them.
I just have one -
NEVER PROCRASTINATE!
And in 2010,
I'm hoping for better things to come by.
And I hope the same for you too. :)
HAPPY NEW YEAR! | | |
| Can there be a solution for everything that happens in life?
Is there any way i can help in the family to ease my parents' pain?
Is there any way to curb his temper?
Is there any way to have a proper diagnosis of his problem?
It's not that I don't wanna care or I don't wanna listen.
I am so afraid of listening so much that it makes me even more helpless.
I am at a loss with no solution.
I'm also wishing that I can have someone to provide me one.
I've always been longing to go back to the past.
To the days where we were so close when we were young.
I don't know what made the change.
I don't know what made things turned sour at home for so long.
The last thing I want is to dread coming home and leave my mum to face all these shit.
What had she done to deserve all these?
I'm trying so hard to make her happy,
to make her know that it's not the end of the world,
yet on the other hand,
deeper damage has been done to hurt her time and again.
This is getting really shitty.
Family is top priority in my life but it is also sad that everyone's unhappy.
No matter how bleak it looks,
I still pray hard that someday my family will be in smiles again. | | |
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Sometimes, I really do hate late nights.
It always tend to get 'emo-tic' when the neighborhood
is sleeping soundly for work next day
while I'm still stubbornly awake,
allowing wild thoughts to run within me again.
沒有期望，就沒有失望。
It felt especially worse in December as it would
always remind me this was when I locked myself away
because of him.
I could never seem to trust someone new anymore.
Two years felt like the longest hiatus i've been taking since the day i lost hope.
And this is gonna go on till I don't even know when.
I realized I'm always slow to get the xmas mood every year.
The decorations in town don't attract me anymore.
(Maybe because they just got worse every year)
I don't feel the mood to get any xmas present this year.
(Maybe not yet)
I don't get the holiday mood. The season of giving.
I hate to be among the crowd getting gifts, waiting for gift wrapping service,
having to think of what to get in the first place.
JUST NO XMAS MOOD AT ALL!
Something is wrong with me. :(
On a brighter note,
I finally managed to get my hands on another apple baby -
iPhone 3GS!
Went to collect together with mr. T
and I couldn't get my hands off my baby since then!
imac + ipod mini + iphone 3GS
I'm a happily satisfied girl! :)
Love Love Love!
I told myself this would be a xmas present for myself!
THEN.
mr. Bear and I were looking around town for mr. T's bday present
in the end we settled on a LV card holder.
I was trying very hard not to look at any bags and small leather goods
until mr. Bear wanted to get one card holder for himself too
and i set my eyes on this in the end!
so, that became my 2nd xmas gift for myself. (T_T)
girls can never run out of excuses when it comes to shopping.
just like how guys can never run out of excuses when it comes to cheating?
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| My favorite quote for 2009:
“Never allow someone to be your priority while allowing yourself to be their option."
Be Strong & Live for yourself!!! | | |
| Don't make me slap you in the face.
You know i would. | | |
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