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During dinner with my BFFs earlier,
we touched on the topic of who did we used to have crush(es) on
in our secondary school and that
reminded myself of the sweet memory I had.
I was 14 years old, he was two years my senior.
As I was from the Choir and he was from the AVA club
dealing with the sound system and stage operations,
it was common to bump into him occasionally during
rehearsals and performances for random events.
I would be looking forward to my performances since
that would be the only way to get to see him closer and
I could vividly recall how my heart would just stop beating for
that few seconds,
my face would be flushing like tomatoes,
my eyes would be avoiding contact with him
whenever he passed by.
It was until my friends and I got to know his friend from
the club which led to the chance of us knowing each other
and started talking.
Apparently our mutual friend told him about my crush and
he started asking me out for drinks!
He was so nice and sweet which made me felt
as though i was in a dream - a very sweet one.
During his final year in school,
he even came to me asking for a photograph,
printed it out and gave it to me together with his school badge for keepsake.
(I'm not sure why the badge was given to me but oh well,
so long as it's anything from him, i'd be happy! lol)
Eventually we lost contact (mobile phones wasn't in the trend yet, darn!)
and few years back when i was reading back my diaries,
I realized he did ask me out a few times but I rejected
cuz i was too shy and i thought he was just trying to
make me happy by asking me out.
Or he was treating me as a little sister.
Tonight as my BFFs and I were talking about it,
I suddenly wondered -
what if he was genuine to ask me out, not of obligation?
what if i did went out with him subsequently, would there be further chapters to continue?
I guess this shall remain a mystery until the day i see him again,
which i really do hope to find back an old friend!
It dawned to me that was my first puppy love crush
which tasted both sweet (the anticipation of bumping him in school)
and sour (due to the fact that nothing came out of it.)
It felt so pure and innocent,
without considering the complications and complexities of relationships
should there be any.
Now, I missed that kind of feeling.
The feeling of just liking someone for who they are.
Now, it's about looking at both love and bread.
Having just love will not suffice,
Having just bread will not either.
It's often a challenge to balance both.
Hence, puppy crush is still the best memory to hold!
It will never make me frown or make me sad,
I'd only end up with a smile thinking back of
the little things that happened!
So, who was your crush back in school? :)
xoxo ♛♛♛ | | |
| 又是emo的夜晚。
對自己很失望，也很無奈。
非常想能讓工作盡快麻醉自己的思緒，
麻醉自己的胡思亂想，
麻醉一切無奈的心情。
是自己頑固？
是自己固執？
是自己運氣不好？
或真的是因為自己不好？
找不到的答案，
請給我一支麻醉針，
讓我不再去尋找。
因為心，
只會越來越痛。
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| Dinner with Coccomomo earlier in town and chilled @ Wine Connection.
We had this conversation regarding "approval on boyfriends"
and it was kind of sad to hear that none, NONE of my ex boyfriends had
ever been approved by them before.
I trust the girls for their judgement on guys and especially the common saying goes,
outsiders see things best.
Sigh.
What a tragic thing to hear.
It's been 1.5 years since the day I declared independence.
Friends, acquaintances, people whom I know are getting married everywhere
like it is the hottest trend in town now.
I seriously ponder and wonder when will it be my turn
to announce the happy news to everyone.
Hmm.
Anyway, on a happier (and sad) note,
I'm back in cosy Singapore after spinning a round in USA!
Tons and loads of pictures,
Thoughts and feelings i can't wait to blog about.
Stay on!
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| It's been 2 weeks since I last left the mighty bank,
the last day of my work felt weird and abrupt as it was
unexpected to be my final day due to the outstanding annual leaves
and off days which i was entitled to.
Everyone were shocked and surprised when they heard the news,
I was filled with mixed emotions within myself for the whole day
as I felt both happy and sad that the final moment had arrived.
My five months spent at the branch had been a really
eventful and challenging one,
having to cope with new environment,
having to start from square one to build my customer base,
having to adapt to being under a new boss.
Thank goodness I was lucky enough to meet nice people
who made me feel like part of them from the first day
I stepped in with their warm smile and welcome.
Prior to joining this organization, I've always kept a distance between colleagues and friends.
To me, colleagues will never be friends.
Moreover, in this dramatic banking industry where it almost
felt as though i was in the entertainment industry,
you had to be on your toes to not say the wrong things at the wrong time.
The folks I've met, regardless was it at my previous branch or
this new branch for these two years,
they made me change my perspective towards fellow colleagues.
They were no longer my colleagues.
They became my friends.
Friends whom I used to spent 99% of my time with,
whether was it during the day or after banking hours,
I would always look forward to spending my time with their company.
Friends whom I could grumble about work with,
Friends whom I used to do teleconsulting with,
Friends whom I look forward to having lunches and dinners with,
Friends whom I would gladly help anytime whenever they need me,
Friends whom I share my joy or sorrow with when events cropped up,
Friends whom make me look forward going to branch every morning,
Friends whom I would take off with together and go for shopping.
I really count my blessings to have the privilege to work with them.
It was one of my best working experience which I would never, ever forget.
I wouldn't know what would my new environment be.
I wouldn't know whether I'd be able to have such luck to have
such colleagues again.
Words could never be enough to express my gratitude for all their
kind assistance and support all these while.
Thank you my dear friends.
The memories shall stay deep in my heart and I will definitely
wish everyone would excel and progress for bigger achievements!
Goodbye!
The closure of a story marks the beginning of a new one.
I'm sure it's gonna get better!
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