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狗狗♥戀。

Sun, 11 Oct 2009 18:36:56 GMT

During dinner with my BFFs earlier,
we touched on the topic of who did we used to have crush(es) on
in our secondary school and that
reminded myself of the sweet memory I had.

I was 14 years old, he was two years my senior.
As I was from the Choir and he was from the AVA club
dealing with the sound system and stage operations,
it was common to bump into him occasionally during
rehearsals and performances for random events.

I would be looking forward to my performances since
that would be the only way to get to see him closer and
I could vividly recall how my heart would just stop beating for
that few seconds,
my face would be flushing like tomatoes,
my eyes would be avoiding contact with him
whenever he passed by.

It was until my friends and I got to know his friend from
the club which led to the chance of us knowing each other
and started talking.
Apparently our mutual friend told him about my crush and
he started asking me out for drinks!

He was so nice and sweet which made me felt
as though i was in a dream - a very sweet one.
During his final year in school,
he even came to me asking for a photograph,
printed it out and gave it to me together with his school badge for keepsake.
(I'm not sure why the badge was given to me but oh well,
so long as it's anything from him, i'd be happy! lol)

Eventually we lost contact (mobile phones wasn't in the trend yet, darn!)
and few years back when i was reading back my diaries,
I realized he did ask me out a few times but I rejected
cuz i was too shy and i thought he was just trying to
make me happy by asking me out.
Or he was treating me as a little sister.

Tonight as my BFFs and I were talking about it,
I suddenly wondered -
what if he was genuine to ask me out, not of obligation?
what if i did went out with him subsequently, would there be further chapters to continue?
I guess this shall remain a mystery until the day i see him again,
which i really do hope to find back an old friend!

It dawned to me that was my first puppy ~~love~~ crush
which tasted both sweet (the anticipation of bumping him in school)
and sour (due to the fact that nothing came out of it.)
It felt so pure and innocent,
without considering the complications and complexities of relationships
should there be any.

Now, I missed that kind of feeling.
The feeling of just liking someone for who they are.

Now, it's about looking at both love and bread.
Having just love will not suffice,
Having just bread will not either.
It's often a challenge to balance both.

Hence, puppy crush is still the best memory to hold!
It will never make me frown or make me sad,
I'd only end up with a smile thinking back of
the little things that happened!

So, who was your crush back in school? :)

xoxo ♛♛♛

先苦後甜--

Thu, 08 Oct 2009 17:46:24 GMT

Today was my Convocation @ SIM,
this had been a very long, way too long awaited day
to finally be able to put on the graduation robe and cap.

Halfway throughout the ceremony,
I was feeling rather emotional as the slideshow was
presenting the campus life that everyone of us
experienced for the past 3 years.

Part-time study is never easy.
Adding assignments and exam stress to your daily
work life is not a joke.

The worst period that I could vividly remember was
having to handle exams and breakup at the same time.
It was one of the toughest time I was struggling to
force myself to focus on the books and to stop
having silly and useless thoughts that were a waste of my time.
Thank goodness, I managed to get good grades out of it! :)

I've always believed in "先苦後甜"
which means "suffering first and enjoy the sweet rewards after".
The initial part of the journey would be tough but
the rewards at the end of the day would be well worth it.
This is not only limited to studies but other aspects in life too
which i find practical and meaningful.

Today marked the day in my life that I felt most proud of myself
for what I achieved.
And of course, this day would be dedicated to my beloved parents
for their support all along.
I'm really glad I did them proud! :)

Harry Potter for the day. It felt darn stuffy wearing the robe!

Awaiting by the stage..

Can't stop smiling!

My dear parents and sweet Reyna!

Wonderful sister who got me the beautiful flowers...

Absent members: Bro, YF and baby Renee

Hip hip HURRAY!

♚♚♚

麻醉針。

Mon, 05 Oct 2009 18:09:44 GMT

又是emo的夜晚。
對自己很失望，也很無奈。
非常想能讓工作盡快麻醉自己的思緒，
麻醉自己的胡思亂想，
麻醉一切無奈的心情。

是自己頑固？
是自己固執？
是自己運氣不好？

或真的是因為自己不好？

找不到的答案，
請給我一支麻醉針，
讓我不再去尋找。

因為心，
只會越來越痛。
－－

Zero approval rate.

Thu, 01 Oct 2009 17:37:25 GMT

Dinner with Coccomomo earlier in town and chilled @ Wine Connection.
We had this conversation regarding "approval on boyfriends"
and it was kind of sad to hear that none, NONE of my ex boyfriends had
ever been approved by them before.
I trust the girls for their judgement on guys and especially the common saying goes,
outsiders see things best.
Sigh.
What a tragic thing to hear.

It's been 1.5 years since the day I declared independence.
Friends, acquaintances, people whom I know are getting married everywhere
like it is the hottest trend in town now.
I seriously ponder and wonder when will it be my turn
to announce the happy news to everyone.
Hmm.

Anyway, on a happier (and sad) note,
I'm back in cosy Singapore after spinning a round in USA!
Tons and loads of pictures,
Thoughts and feelings i can't wait to blog about.
Stay on!
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A happy ending.

Tue, 25 Aug 2009 15:50:15 GMT

It's been 2 weeks since I last left the mighty bank,
the last day of my work felt weird and abrupt as it was
unexpected to be my final day due to the outstanding annual leaves
and off days which i was entitled to.

Everyone were shocked and surprised when they heard the news,
I was filled with mixed emotions within myself for the whole day
as I felt both happy and sad that the final moment had arrived.
My five months spent at the branch had been a really
eventful and challenging one,
having to cope with new environment,
having to start from square one to build my customer base,
having to adapt to being under a new boss.

Thank goodness I was lucky enough to meet nice people
who made me feel like part of them from the first day
I stepped in with their warm smile and welcome.

Prior to joining this organization, I've always kept a distance between colleagues and friends.
To me, colleagues will never be friends.
Moreover, in this dramatic banking industry where it almost
felt as though i was in the entertainment industry,
you had to be on your toes to not say the wrong things at the wrong time.

The folks I've met, regardless was it at my previous branch or
this new branch for these two years,
they made me change my perspective towards fellow colleagues.

They were no longer my colleagues.
They became my friends.
Friends whom I used to spent 99% of my time with,
whether was it during the day or after banking hours,
I would always look forward to spending my time with their company.
Friends whom I could grumble about work with,
Friends whom I used to do teleconsulting with,
Friends whom I look forward to having lunches and dinners with,
Friends whom I would gladly help anytime whenever they need me,
Friends whom I share my joy or sorrow with when events cropped up,
Friends whom make me look forward going to branch every morning,
Friends whom I would take off with together and go for shopping.

I really count my blessings to have the privilege to work with them.
It was one of my best working experience which I would never, ever forget.

I wouldn't know what would my new environment be.
I wouldn't know whether I'd be able to have such luck to have
such colleagues again.

Words could never be enough to express my gratitude for all their
kind assistance and support all these while.
Thank you my dear friends.
The memories shall stay deep in my heart and I will definitely
wish everyone would excel and progress for bigger achievements!

Goodbye!

The closure of a story marks the beginning of a new one.
I'm sure it's gonna get better!
=)

This is it.

Wed, 05 Aug 2009 15:52:06 GMT

This morning I went to work in an uber unstable state of mind.
As I switched on my computer and opened Microsoft Outlook to retrieve my email,
my heart was thumping so fast I couldn't breathe.
As I printed my email and placed it in an ordinary envelope,
I had alot of thoughts running through my mind.
As I walked up the stairs to the backroom and approaching my branch manager,
I was thinking of what to say.

I had officially tendered my resignation today.
I had decided to move on after 2 years in branch banking.
I would definitely miss my folks whom I spend 90% of my time with, day in day out.
They evolved from simple colleagues to good friends and
I really appreciate their support, encouragement, help all these while.

I was tearing halfway throughout the conversation with my cluster manager.
The reason why I made this decision was due to a combination of issues which
i felt was not worth staying on.
Leaving is always sad,
However I felt that I seriously need a good, decent break.

Leaving this place was a tough choice.
This decision took me close to a year before I finally made up my mind.
I can't stay unhappy for so long.
I need to do something to make things change.
I need to get out of this 'semi-depression' status to being the good 'old happy me!

Am crossing my fingers that everything will go smoothly as planned.
=)

Anger Management

Mon, 03 Aug 2009 16:51:41 GMT

Recently I realized my temper is getting from bad to worse.
I can simply flare up at any simple issue which is too insignificant to fuss about.
But I just can't help it.
My temper just explodes like a time bomb.

I need to take some anger management course!

A very disturbing nightmare.

Tue, 14 Jul 2009 12:53:42 GMT

Last night, I had a nightmare again.
I dreamt that I committed suicide by injecting some unknown liquid through my wrist and throughout the dream, I felt I was dying slowly, with the chemical taking effect in me.
Everyone around me knew I was dying, but they did nothing.
It was a very scary and helpless feeling.
It was such a disturbing nightmare cuz I couldn't get the scene out of my head for the whole day.
And worse, upon googling for dreams interpretation, I found this:

Suicide
A dream of committing suicide doesn’t necessarily mean that you are suicidal. It could be pointing out a major change that you are about to undertake, or that you feel as if things have gotten out of hand.
If you commit suicide in a dream, it probably means you feel unable to cope any longer with a problem that has obessed and flustrated you for a long time. Perhaps you need professional help to sort this out.

Dreaming that you commit suicide indicates that conditions in your life is so frustrating that you are no longer willing to cope with a situation or relationship in the same way as you did in the past. Alternatively, you may be unable to overcome feelings of guilt and thus turning the aggression on yourself. On a more positive note, it may suggest that you are saying good-bye to one aspect of yourself or character that your have been carrying around. Seeing someone commit suicide in you dream, highlights your concerns for that person. Also consider what characteristics and qualities in that person you may be trying to "kill" and annihilate in your own self. Perhaps you hope that you are not like that person in some way and are making attempts to get rid of those traits within your own self.

What is exactly the issue that is bothering me so much to have that scene?
I am totally freaked out and puzzled after reading the interpretation.

I hope everything's fine and it's just another random (bad) dream!
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Hair Extensions!

Mon, 29 Jun 2009 10:07:38 GMT

Last week I did my first ever hair extensions at milly's! The whole process was done without any hassle or discomfort. I was initially worried about the maintenance especially when it comes to washing them. It's been a week, my hair's still in great condition and thanks to milly's staff who gave me useful tips on how to take care of my hair!

::: Separating the hair for attaching to my own.

::: It's painless and so comfortable...

::: Till i dozed off..

::: The longest tresses i've ever had!

::: It's finally done with some curling.

::: I look as though i'm preparing for a prom night. LOL

::: I'm loving my new look!!!

If you're keen to go for hair extensions too, go to milly's for the best deal and professional service provided!
Two thumbs up!
*** http://milly-s.blogspot.com ***

Next up, I'm gonna try their new slimming massage!
:)

I love Vintage colors.

Mon, 29 Jun 2009 08:16:45 GMT

Aloha!
It's a cloudy, lazy Monday as i laze around at home.
I am on mc today cuz of the stomach cramps that will occur every month without fail, and besides, i was feeling really worn out and tired from working 2 weekends in a row EVERY WEEK. SO! I declare to myself that i should take a break. This job is really taking a toll on me but i shall just refrain from going on repeating the same old grumbles. This is supposed to be a happy blog!

As i was being too free at home, I decided to 'spring-clean' my little blog and change a new look. Actually there's not much difference with the layout, I only changed the background and new header image. I love vintage pictures. Their colors are so beautiful!

Few weeks ago, i attended this workshop organized by company and it was about understanding heart disease and other common health problems among Singaporeans. Initially I thought the workshop must be some boring shit talking about all the medical terms and stuff but surprisingly, I enjoyed the 4 hours workshop and came out with new thoughts and perspectives. The doctor was talking about how to lead life with an open heart, i.e. not taking setbacks too hard and move on because life still goes on no matter what. He kept stressing about this as STRESS is one of the major factor that leads to heart problems. He says we shouldn't push ourselves too hard, shouldn't wish for too many things. The more we wish, the more we demand, the more stress we build upon ourselves. Which is so true that I totally agree with him yet it is so hard to achieve. It is very easy to say "I shall not wish for a better job, better pay, nicer shoes, bags, etc and shall be happy with what I have." How many people can actually do that in reality? Life is tough but we just have to keep moving forward. I need more positive thinking! :)

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Edneth, our little 'brother' at work asked me what are the things do i look for in a boyfriend. This question left me thinking for quite awhile because it's been awhile since I last thought about this. And reading Dada's entry on top 5 major-offs in a guy gave me some 'inspiration'. So, since I am darn free lazing at home today, I came up with the following DONTs for a date (no boyfriend yet, so can't write about it).

A date should NOT:
1. Be stingy.
I cannot stand stingy men. I cannot stand men who expect ladies to pick the tab without offering to pay. I'm not saying that men should always pick the tab. Sometimes I do take the bill but I cannot tolerate men who act blur and take ages to pull out their wallet when the waiter is there waiting. The worst is the guy to make stupid comment like, "Oh, enough or not?" right after I paid for it. I'm sorry but I will be so turned off instantly I'd feel like going home that very minute. The point is, - if you don't want to pay, at least pretend to take out your wallet faster la. Tsk!

2. Be selfish.
I cannot stand men who don't give a thought for the others. Like insisting to watch movie A while I've already expressed no interest, or going for restaurant A when I would gladly prefer restaurant B. Everything is to his likes only without seeking my opinion. Aye, if you can't accept opinions and insist to go your own way, maybe you can bring your maid out for dates in future.

3. Be too full of himself.
I once had a date who'd tell me how gorgeous he is at his age, how women would throw themselves at him in clubs and offer their numbers. Seriously, are you expecting me to lick your boots and worship you like the others too? You should just go and find those who are willing to do that and boost your silly ego.

4. Be too introvert.
You can't expect me to do the talking whole night while you are there sitting quietly and not contributing. Conversation is a TWO-WAY flow. If you can't respond or offer to respond, we should just chat in msn instead of meeting face to face. (on the other hand, i hate msn too as i can't stand the windows popping up non-stop from people whom i don't feel like talking to.)

5. Skip wearing cologne.
I am very particular about how men present themselves. And especially whether do they wear cologne. I'd always find men who wears (nice) cologne attractive and sexy.

Okay, this should be it for now.
Disclaimer: Above mentioned points are all my personal preferences with no intention to flame or offend anyone. (If you find yourself belong in any of the above, you'd prolly understand why I hadn't been talking to you. Haha)

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Oh, another big news to announce - our dear J YELLOWACE is getting engaged!
Congratulations dear!
I am so looking forward to be her 姐妹!
The first member of Coccomomo to be engaged!
I think I will be the last. :(

::: Waiting for the girls before going for Steamboat at Milly's!